why do we as women give so much power to the male species? somehow they manage to control our thoughts & emotions & feelings & we just let it happen. why is it so difficult to be happy when you have so much good going on in your life, but yet you dont know what the man in your life is thinking & that brings you down from that cloud 9 you should be on... why can't we think like them and just not care and brush things off so easily. why is it so easy for them to not let one single thing we do affect their mood & day? they know it'll all be fine tomorrow. as is 99% of the time true. but we want answers. we want to know that it's all good NOW. not tomorrow. patience. ugh. why can we not keep that empowered feeling all the time and never let a look or a text or a phone call or a word or a statement get in our heads and get us down. why is that sooooo difficult for women? so up. so down. such a rollercoaster. dont get me wrong, it certainly keeps me on my toes, that's for certain... & i do love that thrill... but i just really wish my mood was not so easily affected. why do i have to care so much?
geez. just gotta shake it off. not worry so much & just live MY life. why is it so clear when i sit here & type it out or when i'm out on an afternoon jog? why can't i keep that clear mind allllll the time. i need to do more yoga i think. yes, that is the answer. yoga, running, pilates, dancing. they fix everything. me. me. me. it's all about me. remember it. dont forget it. play their game & win. you know you're worth that & deserve that & are wayyyyy better than that. so don't forget it. k? k.
in other news... i had a thrill of a weekend. whew.
to sum it up in a few short statements...
old no. 7 was my best friend.
old no. 7 was my caloric intake. total.
old no. 7 was my fun train.
locked doors. x2, 1 bad, 1 very VERY good.
lesbians with hands & pickup lines
carrie underwood compliments galore.
dum dums & gum.
baseball alumni in love.
doughnuts & m&ms.
sneaking out of windows.
a nice hot shower.
& a taco bell mexi pizza.
all in all, success in fun land was accomplished.
i do love life. the ups, the downs, the crazies, the happys, the dramas, the everythings.
i love it all.
