never has there been a more true statement. it seems to be so relevant in my life these days. rest equals rust. basically use it or lose it. lately i feel like i've completely lost it. it's funny how you can go from running 14 miles no problem to struggling through 4 or 5. life has been a rollercoaster lately. and in my particular situation, a rusty rollercoaster that's stuck at the bottom of one of the harshest plummets or possibly even stuck at the top of an upside down loop. being stuck upside down can't be fun and in fact sounds quite nauseating. that's how i feel. both physically and mentally. i need to find the wd40 soon. because emotionally, i am drained. physically, i am unmotivated and it's starting to show in my thighs. mentally, i am so bamboozled i don't even know where to begin. i get distracted by every single problem that in my head i jump from one problem to the next and then back around to the first problem i started worrying about....
whoever said the twenties were the time of your life and to live it up lied. well, i guess that's not actually true. i'm having some times of my life. but why can't i live it up whilst being financially secure and feelings mentally and physically stable? i guess i can... i just can't. ugh. indecisiveness will be the death of me.
MOTIVATION. GET AT ME. pleeeeeeeease. before i become a rusty useless pile of car scrap that nobody wants to look at and gets stuck on the side of a mobile home to eventually turn to red oklahoma dirt. not that that would be a bad thing... because who doesn't love them some oklahoma red dirt? just kidding. it would be bad. very bad.
Monday, August 13, 2012
Friday, January 20, 2012
happy trails to you.
I've been thinking a lot lately. and by that i mean A LOT. too much in fact. overthinking really. i've been so nervous and scared and in my head about this year we call 2012. it's a big year of change for me.
new city.
new state.
new hair color.
new job opportunity.
new dance studio.
new friends.
new apartment.
new climate.
new eating habits.
a whooooole lot of NEW. now, this can be a very very good thing. change is exciting! for some reason though, i have been letting myself worry sick about it all. with that being said, it's not only questioning where i am and what i am doing now. i have for some reason decided to pull out past memories and let them play a part in my thinking. i am basing things on PAST experience instead of living in the now and seeing where this road will lead me. i have gone down many a beaten path, dark alleys, and adventurous backroads. i am well-traveled, to say the least. i have been there done that, and hopefully learned a thing or 2 from each adventure. it's one thing to have the experience and learn and move on from there. keep on keeping on. happy trails to you, until we meet again, yadda yadda yadda... it's entirely un-useful if you dwell in the negatives of those experiences and worry for the same outcome in future endeavors. you know what you did not like about those unfortunate environments, so why on earth would you return and do the same? you wouldnt. unless youre insane. the definiton of insanity is doing the same thing time and time again and expecting a different result. so why i am getting into my head and letting it freak me out into thinking i am going to fail like i have in the past? i know what those roads look like. i know exactly and at the first sign of the wrong red light, i'd take a quick U-turn and be on my way. happy trails. i need to remember that. and not worry. that is all.
new city.
new state.
new hair color.
new job opportunity.
new dance studio.
new friends.
new apartment.
new climate.
new eating habits.
a whooooole lot of NEW. now, this can be a very very good thing. change is exciting! for some reason though, i have been letting myself worry sick about it all. with that being said, it's not only questioning where i am and what i am doing now. i have for some reason decided to pull out past memories and let them play a part in my thinking. i am basing things on PAST experience instead of living in the now and seeing where this road will lead me. i have gone down many a beaten path, dark alleys, and adventurous backroads. i am well-traveled, to say the least. i have been there done that, and hopefully learned a thing or 2 from each adventure. it's one thing to have the experience and learn and move on from there. keep on keeping on. happy trails to you, until we meet again, yadda yadda yadda... it's entirely un-useful if you dwell in the negatives of those experiences and worry for the same outcome in future endeavors. you know what you did not like about those unfortunate environments, so why on earth would you return and do the same? you wouldnt. unless youre insane. the definiton of insanity is doing the same thing time and time again and expecting a different result. so why i am getting into my head and letting it freak me out into thinking i am going to fail like i have in the past? i know what those roads look like. i know exactly and at the first sign of the wrong red light, i'd take a quick U-turn and be on my way. happy trails. i need to remember that. and not worry. that is all.
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