set and keep goals

i have a few new goals to aim for. in everyday happenings really.

1. i want to make an impression on people. a good one of course.

2. i want to be known as someone who's always positive and always smiling.

3. i want to avoid gossip and drama. such a waste of energy and life.

4. i want to be more understanding and less selfish.

5. i want to make people smile and make them feel good about themselves too :)

i had this realization today with a few different things that happened to me. the first was one of the girls in the line told me that i have such a great presence on stage and that it keeps them going. then another girl chimed in and said that her parents picked me out in the line and also said i have a "really great presence on stage" and she also agreed that I make her smile and keep her going. that really made me smile. i dont want to lose that. i want to impact people like that over and over again. even if im having a crumby day or in this case a crumby show, i want to be a positive presence and influence on people in my life.

the 2nd thing that happened, when we walk out into the lobby right before nativity, i always smile at the people standing around staring at us in awe. it makes me giggle knowing im a rockette and they think it's really cool to be that close to me. well today in the 3rd show of the day when everyones spirits are starting to die a bit, one of the ladies that works at the apparel booth in the lobby smiled, waved and said "one more to go!" i reacted with a smile, a wave back and a comment probably something along the lines of "thank goodness!" as i walked away i heard her say "i love that girl, she's always smiling at me and just seems so sweet" talking about me. who knew that a simple smile and hello would have such an impact on someone? as i sat in my spot in the audience i thought about that and how i want to be seen as "very sweet and always smiling" to everyone i meet. im going to work on that and try to really tune in on how i am acting towards people. i think thats really important. to have a happy impact on people.

i want to make people smile. not just on stage but also in every day life. :)

i also have some goals for the year ahead. im going to write them now while im thinking about them. im sure there will be more added later on. but this is what ive got right now...

1. run a half marathon.

2. POSSIBLY run a full marathon after that. (yikes! faceing my fears!

3. get my pilates certification.

4. go to a few auditions.

5. GO TO BALLET CLASS!

6. get a tattoo.

7. live independently and get my life in order. grow up basically.

8. live fearlessly. face my fears every day. do what i think i cannot do.

that last one really sums up all my goals. i want to live this year to the fullest. spontaneously. seize the day. wake up with a smile on my face not knowing what the day will being. and going to bed feeling like i accomplished something whether its going on a 8 mile hike or finishing 8 loads of laundry. i want to live every day with a purpose. :) "new for 09" as we say here in rocketteland, or i guess new for 2010 :) love it.

i have 3 more shows to do in my 11 show weekend tomorrow. so close to being done. come sunday at 9, i will feel on top of the world and like i can conquer anything. because indeed i can. but first, sleep. bed time, goodnight all. peace and love. xx