things for my 21 list are looking good! last night i ran 5 miles in training for my half marathon. i am very proud of this considering it is only january and i have until april to train for it. 13 miles, piece of cake! i just have to continue on in the direction i am going now :)
ugh, i just ate a chocolate covered marshmallow in the shape of "santa" which was really more of just a blob of chocolate lumpiness. bad idea. my stomach is churning :P anywhooooo...
also for my 21 list, i bought 3 books today!
1. eat, pray, love by Elizabeth Gilbert (a NY times #1 best seller, must be great!)
2. the bounce back book by Karen Salmansohn (think im going to need this advice soon...)
3. men may come and go but i've still got my little pink raincoat by Gigi Anders (it was on the bargain books shelf for $4 and looked like a cute story)
the only question is which one do i read first?? very excited to jump on the book nerd bandwagon :)
i'm going to be 21 this year. today in the car for the first time ever my mom randomly, out of nowhere asks "have you ever been drunk?" ......................awkward. my family does not drink. alcohol is a touchy subject. it is the unmentionable subject rather. nobody talks about it, it's almost like it does not exist in our household land. i on the other hand, happen to looove a perfectly chilled glass of chardonnay, a bubbly glass of champagne, a brightly colored fruity girly mixed drink, a classic jack and coke, a frosty miller lite, a vodka soda, you name it, i like it. i am and always have been the secret rebel of the family. by secret, i don't actually mean secret... anything rebellious in high school i EVER did, i always got caught. somehow or another, my mom always found out and i usually ended up grounded or phone-less. nonetheless, i would continue with my rebellious ways. go figure. i have never liked the concept of being told what i can and cannot do. you tell me i can't do something, i'm going to go right out and do it. proving people wrong is something i thrive on for some reason. in other areas of life this can be a very good thing, however when it comes to parental authority, not so much. anyways back to my point, did my mom really ask if i've ever been "drunk"?? i of course responded with a very vague "umm.... i don't really know...." to which she replies "well have you ever been tipsy?" i have no choice at this point... in past occasions, i would usually try to be the perfect innocent angel and deny it yet again, however in my mind in my 5 second pause to answer, a thousand things ran through my head. first thing of course was my usual denial reaction.. then i thought, "i am going to be 21 years old in 2 months... isn't it time i start easing my mom into realizing that i do drink and that i actually quite enjoy it?" do to her question i responded "well yes." very straightforward. quick. painless. blunt. i have. i've been "tipsy". now, this could have gone very badly because of course i am not 21 YET. so technically that's quite illegal of me. oh my my. imagine that, underage drinking, nobody's ever done that. ha. funny thing is my parents probably did not... anyways, i live in a different age, i'm a different person, i've lived in different circumstances, therefore, i have. i figure though, can she really blame me? first of all, college. duh. my parents kept me so locked up, ball and chain OF COURSE i'm going to go a LITTLE crazy. i mean really. second of all, i was thrown into a world of 30 year old women with a job that practically REQUIRES a glass of wine to chill out at the end of the day. yes i drink. but i am responsible, don't get me wrong. and i don't like things getting out of control. in fact drinking in excess for no reason quite disgusts me. compared with a lot of people my age, i think my outlook on drinking is far beyond my years. drinking to get drunk is ridiculous in my eyes. drinking because it's a social thing, and you're out with friends, THAT is what i love. i'm not like most college age students though, i can turn a drink down if i just don't feel like it. in fact, a lot of the time, unless it's a special occasion, i will turn it down. it's unhealthy and does NOT always make me feel good. i know it's not good for my body, and with my job and career choice, my body is numero uno on the priority list. alrighty, i'm sick of talking about this now. point is, my mom found out today that i have indeed been "tipsy" in my lifetime.
although it's going to be hard at times, i am actually very excited for the months to come. i like a change. i crave a challenge. these next few months are certainly going to bring change and challenges. i'm ready and willing for this new adventure. going at it full force, head first.
FEARLESS.
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