i obviously can't think of anything other than my last post. but i'm going to try to do so in this post. lists about ME. the most important, trustworthy person in my life right now...
things i am very good at
- drinking diet coke and green tea
- pointing my feet
- sticking it out in hot yoga
- dancing in heels for 8 hrs and not complaining
- being a great friend
- doing special things for other people
- being up front and honest
- making smoothies
this is not easy. i'm trying so hard to keep my mind off of it and stay positive, but it is taking everything in me to not pick up the phone and call him right now. i will not though. i'm going to be the bigger person about it. i'm going to stay calm and collected. i'm going to be the mature one. i am going to handle it the best way i know how. i just have to wait a few weeks. *sigh*
funny how typing "i just have to wait a few weeks" is so quick and easy, but the actual concept of it happening... sheesh.
all i can do is try to keep my feelings hidden from not only everyone else, but myself as well. my anger. my sadness. my hurt. my frustration. my ache from all of this. i have to simply ignore it. simple right? ha. i wish. i'm just trying to forget it ever happened at all... again, easier said than done. ...............it hurts. :/
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