Wednesday, January 20, 2010

therapy=dancing


soooooo glad to be back home and sleeping in my bed tonight. the packing for okc begins tomorrow as well as the "hotter than ever alli" training also commences. very exciting.
healthier eating habits
whiter teeth
longer gym hours
tanning salon visits
outfit plannings
drinking more tea
running more miles
and a physique 57 training sesh every day! very exciting indeed.

oh! and NO MORE SHOPPING! i have an addiction and it is verrrrry baaaaaaad. so no more.

im so glad that lovely awful time of the month is over. no more bloating. no more being pissy at everyone. no more feeling ugly every second of the day no matter how hard you try. no more super bitch alli. no more pizza face zittys. thank you Lord for giving me short, light "weeks of fun". if it went any longer i definitely think i would literally kill someone. or at least inflict great physical pain and sorrow. neither of which sound very appealing.

i forgot how much i love to dance. i really do love it. i love the endorphins it gives. i love the way you feel at the end of a really good dance class. and even a not so good dance class. i love the challenge that your body gives you in every single dance class you walk into. your body will find new ways to move every single second of the class and that feeling is so thrilling to me. i love the challenge. i love the way dancing makes my body look. it gives it such a form and feeling that i didn't even know i had in me. it literally brings out the best in me in every single way. it's my therapy. and it's the best form of therapy out there if you ask me. no wonder i was a nut job last year. i was not dancing. dancing is my one true love. i really want to focus on improving and getting better this year. i can't wait to get to class in oklahoma city. i am so much stronger now than the last time i was consistently in dance classes and i know i am going to surprise myself. dance is also the best form of expression. it lets me say the things i cannot get out of my mouth. like this.


beautiful. perfect. i love it. i want to dance like that. i can't wait.

it's raining outside. appropriate for the happenings of the past few days. i am fine. i am strong. i am independent. i don't need a man. i have all i need. i think the sky is crying for me since i cannot cry today. maybe it is crying to put me to sleep. hopefully i get some sleep tonight.
goodnight world.

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